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  • I promise I'm taking my meds just still trying to figure this stuff out
  • I promise I'm taking my meds just still trying to figure this stuff out

  •  9  2  24 May, 2020
  • I know this is a strange weekend for all of us when normally we might have some travel or BBQs or some types of adventures planned and everything is restricted right now. Make sure you take time to connect with others via a call, text, video call, etc. but also take a few moments to realize how far you've come. If you follow this page  and are aware of your personal struggles, that also means you've made great strides in your personal growth, even if it hasn't been easy. Pause a moment and soak in that satisfaction that you're on a journey of healing, self acceptance and self love and you have made progress. Continue to take time for yourself for "personal growth" however challenging it may be, and please connect here for support if you need it! We're here and we get it! ❤️ Thanks @theshekcheck for sharing the quote! 
#survivingquarantine #mdw2020 #bipolar #bp1 #bp2 #bipolarstrong #bipolarlife #breakthestigma #overcome #mentalhealth #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #mentalhealthwarrior #hypomania #livingwell #energy #positiveenergy #mentalhealthblog #blogger #buststigma #selfcare
  • I know this is a strange weekend for all of us when normally we might have some travel or BBQs or some types of adventures planned and everything is restricted right now. Make sure you take time to connect with others via a call, text, video call, etc. but also take a few moments to realize how far you've come. If you follow this page and are aware of your personal struggles, that also means you've made great strides in your personal growth, even if it hasn't been easy. Pause a moment and soak in that satisfaction that you're on a journey of healing, self acceptance and self love and you have made progress. Continue to take time for yourself for "personal growth" however challenging it may be, and please connect here for support if you need it! We're here and we get it! ❤️ Thanks @theshekcheck for sharing the quote!
    #survivingquarantine #mdw2020 #bipolar #bp1 #bp2 #bipolarstrong #bipolarlife #breakthestigma #overcome #mentalhealth #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #mentalhealthwarrior #hypomania #livingwell #energy #positiveenergy #mentalhealthblog #blogger #buststigma #selfcare

  •  31  2  23 May, 2020
  • No matter what you have we all have the same feelings. @anxiousmoms
  • No matter what you have we all have the same feelings. @anxiousmoms

  •  16  1  23 May, 2020
  • Life is meant to be spent happy with a smile on your face and if you are not you should figure out what it is that is causing you unhappiness. For myself it had to do with mindset and adult attachment theory’s! I have an ambivalent attachment style. Now that I know this and I can work towards not allowing for this type of attachment to control my life and those in it by working towards creating a secure attachment style instead. Then I should be able to regain my positive outlook on life again completely. I am feeling much more like myself once again! This behavior is a behavioral trait I developed in grade school because of a friend not admitting to our friendship with others and those same feelings poured back now as an adult. It turns into looking like a jealousy issue when truly it’s fear of not being wanted or enough for a friend. This was the topic discussed this week in therapy and how my past childhood trauma has effected my current days. I have never stuck to therapy before I never found a therapist that I clicked with who seemed to understand me and actually be able to get the fact I work in the field too and do my own research and be willing to explore my own insights and then put her insights with my own. My therapist who I’ve had since about week 3 of the Pandemic is amazing and I have improved during the pandemic where most have declined thanks to her! Life is good!
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#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • Life is meant to be spent happy with a smile on your face and if you are not you should figure out what it is that is causing you unhappiness. For myself it had to do with mindset and adult attachment theory’s! I have an ambivalent attachment style. Now that I know this and I can work towards not allowing for this type of attachment to control my life and those in it by working towards creating a secure attachment style instead. Then I should be able to regain my positive outlook on life again completely. I am feeling much more like myself once again! This behavior is a behavioral trait I developed in grade school because of a friend not admitting to our friendship with others and those same feelings poured back now as an adult. It turns into looking like a jealousy issue when truly it’s fear of not being wanted or enough for a friend. This was the topic discussed this week in therapy and how my past childhood trauma has effected my current days. I have never stuck to therapy before I never found a therapist that I clicked with who seemed to understand me and actually be able to get the fact I work in the field too and do my own research and be willing to explore my own insights and then put her insights with my own. My therapist who I’ve had since about week 3 of the Pandemic is amazing and I have improved during the pandemic where most have declined thanks to her! Life is good!
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    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  17  0  22 May, 2020
  • Was trying to take a cute selfie for a post but the sun is really bright so I'm going with this one 😂
Just wanna post that I'm hanging in there.  My husband is back on dialysis so I'm the only one bringing in tha mullah until his disability kicks in.  Im also trying to juggle being a mom and working a new position.  On top of it all I think I'm in a mild mixed episode. 
Hanging in though.  Trying to be the rock for my little family. Gonna get through this. And someone once told me laughter and tears are both signs of intense emotions.  Im choosing to laugh.

#bipolaradvocate #bipolar #mentalhealthadvocate #laughatyourself #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #sunisbright #funnyselfie
  • Was trying to take a cute selfie for a post but the sun is really bright so I'm going with this one 😂
    Just wanna post that I'm hanging in there. My husband is back on dialysis so I'm the only one bringing in tha mullah until his disability kicks in. Im also trying to juggle being a mom and working a new position. On top of it all I think I'm in a mild mixed episode.
    Hanging in though. Trying to be the rock for my little family. Gonna get through this. And someone once told me laughter and tears are both signs of intense emotions. Im choosing to laugh.

    #bipolaradvocate #bipolar #mentalhealthadvocate #laughatyourself #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #sunisbright #funnyselfie

  •  14  3  21 May, 2020
  • Sometimes you have to toot your own horn! Today I celebrate my 43rd birthday! Today I use the word celebrate, I don’t know if I’ve used it and been able to mean it when speaking of the day in the past but today I am giving myself permission to if only for a few mins to celebrate me and who I am! I am going to give myself the okay to love myself exactly the way I am now! Not the person I think I may become and then fail to achieve. Not the person I thought I could magically make myself into, but I’m going to give myself permission to love the person I already am and the person that I always have been. I never have to prove anything to that person anymore they aren’t even here. But that’s the shitty thing about trauma, the abuser can be long gone and no longer a part of your life and yet you still hurt. I however, will not hurt today! It’s a day to Celebrate the girl who once thought she wanted nothing more than to be a daisy realizing the beauty there is in being unique! I’m not just a daisy and that’s to be celebrated!!!
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#notjustadaisy
#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • Sometimes you have to toot your own horn! Today I celebrate my 43rd birthday! Today I use the word celebrate, I don’t know if I’ve used it and been able to mean it when speaking of the day in the past but today I am giving myself permission to if only for a few mins to celebrate me and who I am! I am going to give myself the okay to love myself exactly the way I am now! Not the person I think I may become and then fail to achieve. Not the person I thought I could magically make myself into, but I’m going to give myself permission to love the person I already am and the person that I always have been. I never have to prove anything to that person anymore they aren’t even here. But that’s the shitty thing about trauma, the abuser can be long gone and no longer a part of your life and yet you still hurt. I however, will not hurt today! It’s a day to Celebrate the girl who once thought she wanted nothing more than to be a daisy realizing the beauty there is in being unique! I’m not just a daisy and that’s to be celebrated!!!
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    #notjustadaisy
    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  42  14  20 May, 2020
  • If you are currently struggling with depression caused by the stress of being completely dependent on others in order for yourself to find happiness then I want to encourage you to follow me as I start the next phase of my recovery journey in mental health. Each time I have a major episode I come out of it learning something new about who I am and my own mind and how I tick! Ambivalent attachment in adults is where an adult never feels secure in themselves, and therefore the relationships they try to develop never last because they self prophecy them over before they get going with abandonment. The only relationship I have ever had last is with my husband. I barely can keep a friend. I think they will leave so I push them away before they can leave me. I don’t need to do that anymore. My childhood is over and it’s time to heal. It’s time to rediscover who I am. The me that I can be in the year 2020. Not the scared 9 or 10 year old from 1987.  I am proud of who I am now, I’ve worked hard to become her and I’m going to keep discovering who I am! Not who it is others believe I should be, but who I want to be, what I want to feel, think, and say what it is I want to say! Rediscover You! .
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#rediscoveryou #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • If you are currently struggling with depression caused by the stress of being completely dependent on others in order for yourself to find happiness then I want to encourage you to follow me as I start the next phase of my recovery journey in mental health. Each time I have a major episode I come out of it learning something new about who I am and my own mind and how I tick! Ambivalent attachment in adults is where an adult never feels secure in themselves, and therefore the relationships they try to develop never last because they self prophecy them over before they get going with abandonment. The only relationship I have ever had last is with my husband. I barely can keep a friend. I think they will leave so I push them away before they can leave me. I don’t need to do that anymore. My childhood is over and it’s time to heal. It’s time to rediscover who I am. The me that I can be in the year 2020. Not the scared 9 or 10 year old from 1987. I am proud of who I am now, I’ve worked hard to become her and I’m going to keep discovering who I am! Not who it is others believe I should be, but who I want to be, what I want to feel, think, and say what it is I want to say! Rediscover You! .
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    #rediscoveryou #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  17  1  20 May, 2020
  • my gut is telling me something.
  • my gut is telling me something.

  •  7  2  19 May, 2020
  • #Repost @abipolaraddict
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Today is a not just another day, it's a new opportunity,  another chance, a new beginning. Embrace it. Turning the page of yesterday, its in the past. Its behind you. When you drive to a new destination you always face forward, looking to what's ahead and only glancing back to see what was behind you. It's a new day, a fresh start, new opportunities , fresh energy, get your mind right. Be thankful. Be happy. Be positive. And start your day right.
#addiction #recovery #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthadvocate #bepositive #turnthepage #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #anewday #mentalhealthblogger #bipolarhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery
  • #Repost @abipolaraddict
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    Today is a not just another day, it's a new opportunity, another chance, a new beginning. Embrace it. Turning the page of yesterday, its in the past. Its behind you. When you drive to a new destination you always face forward, looking to what's ahead and only glancing back to see what was behind you. It's a new day, a fresh start, new opportunities , fresh energy, get your mind right. Be thankful. Be happy. Be positive. And start your day right.
    #addiction #recovery #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalhealthadvocate #bepositive #turnthepage #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #anewday #mentalhealthblogger #bipolarhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery

  •  11  0  19 May, 2020
  • My husband and I believe humor in our home is highly important! It keeps us smiling and keeps us giggling together! My husband is my very best friend, my soul mate, and the absolute worst joke teller or so I believed until we began doing tiktok now I realize I am the worlds worst joke teller! lol hahaha. So bad that you can see in the video I have notes in my lap and yet somehow the joke still doesn’t come out quite right! But if you can laugh, you can take on the world! .
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#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • My husband and I believe humor in our home is highly important! It keeps us smiling and keeps us giggling together! My husband is my very best friend, my soul mate, and the absolute worst joke teller or so I believed until we began doing tiktok now I realize I am the worlds worst joke teller! lol hahaha. So bad that you can see in the video I have notes in my lap and yet somehow the joke still doesn’t come out quite right! But if you can laugh, you can take on the world! .
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    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  11  0  19 May, 2020
  • Today is a not just another day, it's a new opportunity,  another chance, a new beginning. Embrace it. Turning the page of yesterday, its in the past. Its behind you. When you drive to a new destination you always face forward, looking to what's ahead and only glancing back to see what was behind you. It's a new day, a fresh start, new opportunities , fresh energy, get your mind right. Be thankful. Be happy. Be positive. And start your day right.
#addiction #recovery #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthadvocate #bepositive #turnthepage #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #anewday #mentalhealthblogger #bipolarhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery
  • Today is a not just another day, it's a new opportunity, another chance, a new beginning. Embrace it. Turning the page of yesterday, its in the past. Its behind you. When you drive to a new destination you always face forward, looking to what's ahead and only glancing back to see what was behind you. It's a new day, a fresh start, new opportunities , fresh energy, get your mind right. Be thankful. Be happy. Be positive. And start your day right.
    #addiction #recovery #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalhealthadvocate #bepositive #turnthepage #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #bipolardisoder #anewday #mentalhealthblogger #bipolarhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery

  •  97  4  19 May, 2020
  • PSA
  • PSA

  •  3  1  19 May, 2020
  • last night and this moring
  • last night and this moring

  •  4  1  18 May, 2020
  • It is easy for those of us with BPD to lose ourselves in other people. We search for constant approval and reassurance to be accepted. When we don’t receive it we think the end of the world has come and we are like an addict going through withdrawals! However, when you detach finally and remember who you were as an individual again it becomes a refreshing new beginning with joy and happiness that sparks new life into your every breath. You realize you need to not give up all of the things you love in order to be happy and you realize you can have it all if you allow yourself the freedom of it! Pure happiness is just within your reach! I can see that now, where I was so blinded before! No longer! On another note! My birthday is Wednesday! Woohoo!

#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • It is easy for those of us with BPD to lose ourselves in other people. We search for constant approval and reassurance to be accepted. When we don’t receive it we think the end of the world has come and we are like an addict going through withdrawals! However, when you detach finally and remember who you were as an individual again it becomes a refreshing new beginning with joy and happiness that sparks new life into your every breath. You realize you need to not give up all of the things you love in order to be happy and you realize you can have it all if you allow yourself the freedom of it! Pure happiness is just within your reach! I can see that now, where I was so blinded before! No longer! On another note! My birthday is Wednesday! Woohoo!

    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  23  1  18 May, 2020
  • overthinking can be worse than letting it play out
  • overthinking can be worse than letting it play out

  •  6  4  17 May, 2020
  • You more than your illness stay with me ...OKAY?
  • You more than your illness stay with me ...OKAY?

  •  24  1  17 May, 2020
  • Do I have side effects... Yes 
Are they worth it?
  • Do I have side effects... Yes
    Are they worth it?

  •  10  1  17 May, 2020
  • I'm kinda a reck this morning
  • I'm kinda a reck this morning

  •  5  1  16 May, 2020
  • Kids are up early so today is even later but better late than never.
  • Kids are up early so today is even later but better late than never.

  •  8  1  15 May, 2020
  • braking habits day by day. 
picked up my last Wednesday.
  • braking habits day by day.
    picked up my last Wednesday.

  •  7  3  15 May, 2020
  • When you finally remember what it feels like to smile. Therapy this week had me challenging my feeling of abandonment and asking myself if it was possible for there to be a scenario in a situation where an absence didn’t leave me feeling abandoned. I had to be truthful with myself in the reality that it was more than just possible but highly likely. Challenging natural assumptions you have always jumped to the conclusion of because of the fact that you believe you’re broken due to your illness is a trap those of us with mental illness will often fall prey to! It is important for us to step up to those challenges and rise to the chance to recognize we are not inherently bad because we have bipolar, bpd, schizoaffective (list and mental health disorder here) we like everyone else are a likable, lovable person and sometimes things just don’t work like ya planned. .
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#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate  #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup .
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  • When you finally remember what it feels like to smile. Therapy this week had me challenging my feeling of abandonment and asking myself if it was possible for there to be a scenario in a situation where an absence didn’t leave me feeling abandoned. I had to be truthful with myself in the reality that it was more than just possible but highly likely. Challenging natural assumptions you have always jumped to the conclusion of because of the fact that you believe you’re broken due to your illness is a trap those of us with mental illness will often fall prey to! It is important for us to step up to those challenges and rise to the chance to recognize we are not inherently bad because we have bipolar, bpd, schizoaffective (list and mental health disorder here) we like everyone else are a likable, lovable person and sometimes things just don’t work like ya planned. .
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    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #gingernglitter #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup .
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  •  37  1  15 May, 2020
  • "The shiniest people tend to suffer to the most because life can be too dim."
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That's a comment someone left on my tiktok after they asked me to upload more content and replied by letting them know I'm not in a great heads pace rn.

After reading that I realized that whether it's true or not, I shouldn't stop shining because my world view is dim rn. If all glittery and colorful ppl stopped glowing, this world would TRULY be dim. While it's valid for me to breathe and feel and express my emotion rn, I don't wanna let myself dim my own light by getting caught in thought spirals and existential dread. It's important to recognize that there's darkness but it's more important to not let it weigh me down. I want to feel empowered by it, inspired by it and speak openly about it to inspire and empower others.

Thank you to everyone who's reached out to me sent so much love and encouragement my way. I see you, I love you and I appreciate your words, wisdom and support so incredibly much 💞🦋 Photography by @kactusphoto edited by me
  • "The shiniest people tend to suffer to the most because life can be too dim."
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    That's a comment someone left on my tiktok after they asked me to upload more content and replied by letting them know I'm not in a great heads pace rn.

    After reading that I realized that whether it's true or not, I shouldn't stop shining because my world view is dim rn. If all glittery and colorful ppl stopped glowing, this world would TRULY be dim. While it's valid for me to breathe and feel and express my emotion rn, I don't wanna let myself dim my own light by getting caught in thought spirals and existential dread. It's important to recognize that there's darkness but it's more important to not let it weigh me down. I want to feel empowered by it, inspired by it and speak openly about it to inspire and empower others.

    Thank you to everyone who's reached out to me sent so much love and encouragement my way. I see you, I love you and I appreciate your words, wisdom and support so incredibly much 💞🦋 Photography by @kactusphoto edited by me

  •  53  8  14 May, 2020
  • Sometimes life throws things at you, you aren’t expecting. Other times it gives you exactly what you were afraid of most, but you went for it anyway! Just because! I knew what I was doing and to be sad now over great memories of the fun and happy times just seems silly. When I can just smile, be grateful for the happiness, love that was shared, and the feelings of pure joy I got to experience. Sometimes you have to try and remember it’s all about perspective!!! Then again is being able to see the different perspectives how I should judge going forward where I’m falling on a manic scale. I am learning however to trust my gut instinct a little bit more. Today I felt sunshine inside and I wanted my outside to reflect my inside light! I have no where to go today and no video meetings but my hair and makeup are done as part of my daily plan and I took some extra time with it to enjoy it this way I can consider it my self care and mean it! 
My blue hair color is from the brand @splathairdye bronzer @nyxcosmetics 
Eyeliner @clinique brows @skonecosmetics .
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#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #bipolar #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • Sometimes life throws things at you, you aren’t expecting. Other times it gives you exactly what you were afraid of most, but you went for it anyway! Just because! I knew what I was doing and to be sad now over great memories of the fun and happy times just seems silly. When I can just smile, be grateful for the happiness, love that was shared, and the feelings of pure joy I got to experience. Sometimes you have to try and remember it’s all about perspective!!! Then again is being able to see the different perspectives how I should judge going forward where I’m falling on a manic scale. I am learning however to trust my gut instinct a little bit more. Today I felt sunshine inside and I wanted my outside to reflect my inside light! I have no where to go today and no video meetings but my hair and makeup are done as part of my daily plan and I took some extra time with it to enjoy it this way I can consider it my self care and mean it!
    My blue hair color is from the brand @splathairdye bronzer @nyxcosmetics
    Eyeliner @clinique brows @skonecosmetics .
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  •  32  5  14 May, 2020
  • what it is and why
  • what it is and why

  •  9  1  14 May, 2020
  • Sometimes letting go in order to bring your soul peace is all the strength I have left within the fight in me. When I finally have come to the conclusion and the realization I lack complete and total control over a situation I know that there is absolutely nothing else I can do to fix any of it, and I’m not sure anybody but myself even cares if the situation is fixed anyhow anymore which is probably a big clue to me that it’s time to let go of something I don’t have control over. There was a time I would have been devastated by this need to let go. But currently I’m taking it as a chance to grow as an individual! I am a warrior, because as someone who I thought was a friend told me “people will quit on you, you have to get up every day and make sure you don’t quit on yourself.” .
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#inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #bipolar #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough  #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup
  • Sometimes letting go in order to bring your soul peace is all the strength I have left within the fight in me. When I finally have come to the conclusion and the realization I lack complete and total control over a situation I know that there is absolutely nothing else I can do to fix any of it, and I’m not sure anybody but myself even cares if the situation is fixed anyhow anymore which is probably a big clue to me that it’s time to let go of something I don’t have control over. There was a time I would have been devastated by this need to let go. But currently I’m taking it as a chance to grow as an individual! I am a warrior, because as someone who I thought was a friend told me “people will quit on you, you have to get up every day and make sure you don’t quit on yourself.” .
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    #inbipolarfashion #ToshaMaaks #mentalhealthadvocate #bipolaradvocate #bipolar #delusions #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthplan #mentalstrength #mentalhealthfashionblogger #selflove #LoveYourself #selfconfidence #selfworth #mentallyknowyourstyle #knowyourworth #worthy #RareBeauty #youareenough #lifeisgood #inthistogether #thiswontlastforever #journeytowellnesswithToshaMaaks #fashionislife #fashionsavemylife #makeupbyme #makeuplife #lovemakeup #makeup

  •  16  0  14 May, 2020
  • I'm warming up to this thing so bare with me
  • I'm warming up to this thing so bare with me

  •  13  3  14 May, 2020
  • To say I'm not doing well is an understatement.  I crashed from hypomania and then my husband was hospitalized with what we are thinking is kidney failure.  Please, if you know us irl dont text or call him.  He likes to keep medical stuff private but forgets sometimes I need support too.  He's been hospitalized 5 times in the last year due to complications with a kidney transplant.  It's looking like he'll be going back on dialysis.  I was struggling to keep my head above water with my bipolar and then started a new position at work, then my cat was diagnosed with diabetes so I have to do all sorts of vet appointments and start giving her insulin shots twice a day, and then everything with my husband.  I feel like I'm drowning but still have to take care of my 3 year old, myself,  go to work, take care of the kitty, and be my husband's support system.  Idk how to deal with all of this.  I longed around all day yesterday and slept a bunch.  Today I decided I'd get up,  shower and run errands.  Im trying.  I dropped my son off at his grandma's and am just sitting in a gas station parking lot trying to get myself to go run errands. 
Please tell me how you cope with depression and stress.  Im so lost right now.

#bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #manicdepressive #manicdepression #depressed #depression #struggling #stressed #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #overwhelmed #oversharing #advicewelcome #adviceneeded
  • To say I'm not doing well is an understatement. I crashed from hypomania and then my husband was hospitalized with what we are thinking is kidney failure. Please, if you know us irl dont text or call him. He likes to keep medical stuff private but forgets sometimes I need support too. He's been hospitalized 5 times in the last year due to complications with a kidney transplant. It's looking like he'll be going back on dialysis. I was struggling to keep my head above water with my bipolar and then started a new position at work, then my cat was diagnosed with diabetes so I have to do all sorts of vet appointments and start giving her insulin shots twice a day, and then everything with my husband. I feel like I'm drowning but still have to take care of my 3 year old, myself, go to work, take care of the kitty, and be my husband's support system. Idk how to deal with all of this. I longed around all day yesterday and slept a bunch. Today I decided I'd get up, shower and run errands. Im trying. I dropped my son off at his grandma's and am just sitting in a gas station parking lot trying to get myself to go run errands.
    Please tell me how you cope with depression and stress. Im so lost right now.

    #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #bipolarawareness #manicdepressive #manicdepression #depressed #depression #struggling #stressed #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #overwhelmed #oversharing #advicewelcome #adviceneeded

  •  8  0  10 May, 2020
  • I have turned every day into a reason to get dressed up and do my makeup for so long now even while working from home that for all of you struggling to figure out a purpose for it when doing so let me promise you something, right now you’re probably also struggling a bit with depression or maybe a bit more with depression, it may sound silly to make yourself look good when no one will see it. Who cares? Screw it post a selfie then at least great aunt Ida saw it! Point is, when you look good you feel good! #tetyananaturals on my lashes and my foundation is @clinique beyond perfecting bronzer is @nyxcosmetics my glitter liner is @urbandecaycosmetics my lipstick is @bitebeauty and @skonecosmetics always gives me life on my brows! .
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  • I have turned every day into a reason to get dressed up and do my makeup for so long now even while working from home that for all of you struggling to figure out a purpose for it when doing so let me promise you something, right now you’re probably also struggling a bit with depression or maybe a bit more with depression, it may sound silly to make yourself look good when no one will see it. Who cares? Screw it post a selfie then at least great aunt Ida saw it! Point is, when you look good you feel good! #tetyananaturals on my lashes and my foundation is @clinique beyond perfecting bronzer is @nyxcosmetics my glitter liner is @urbandecaycosmetics my lipstick is @bitebeauty and @skonecosmetics always gives me life on my brows! .
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  •  29  0  8 May, 2020
  • So many times I’ve felt like a burden to others bc I feel they become annoyed with me constantly saying I don’t feel well and not up for whatever we planned on doing . So many times I’ve had guys call me the “sick girl with baggage” and they don’t deserve a girl like that. So many traumatizing flashbacks that prevents me from being vulnerable and letting my guard down. I now do not let my chronic illnesses define who I am! #endometriosis #livinglifewithendo #fuckendo #endendo #thisisendometriosis #endosister #chronicillnesswarrior #chronicpainwarrior #invisibleillness #ALLsurvivor #fightlikeagirl #womenshealth #gynhealth #gynecology #pcos #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #youarenotaburden #selflove #selfcare #youmatter #1in10
  • So many times I’ve felt like a burden to others bc I feel they become annoyed with me constantly saying I don’t feel well and not up for whatever we planned on doing . So many times I’ve had guys call me the “sick girl with baggage” and they don’t deserve a girl like that. So many traumatizing flashbacks that prevents me from being vulnerable and letting my guard down. I now do not let my chronic illnesses define who I am! #endometriosis #livinglifewithendo #fuckendo #endendo #thisisendometriosis #endosister #chronicillnesswarrior #chronicpainwarrior #invisibleillness #ALLsurvivor #fightlikeagirl #womenshealth #gynhealth #gynecology #pcos #bipolar #bipolaradvocate #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #youarenotaburden #selflove #selfcare #youmatter #1in10

  •  50  1  8 May, 2020
  • So tired of people saying "You can control it" "You just have to calm down"
  • So tired of people saying "You can control it" "You just have to calm down"

  •  8  1  6 May, 2020

Top #bipolaradvocate Posts

  • So I thought I was just in a good mood because good things were happening but nope sky rocketing into mania again.  Im currently hypomanic, meaning I'm still functioning.  My energy level is wwaayy up,  irritable,  posting to social media a lot, starting a million projects, taking on more than I can handle but rocking the attitude that I can do any damn thing, obsessing about things.  Did I mention my energy level?! Wtaf, I could seriously build a pyramid right now 😂. The good news: I'm aware of it.  Have a teledoc appointment with my psych today and gonna talk about ways to prevent full blown mania, possibly more meds, idk.  The wierd thing is usually when I'm manic I run on 4ish hours of sleep and am still super hyper,  but I'm sleeping pretty normally.  Usually,  if i recognize the early signs i make myself sleep more and that sometimes helps me not go completely crazy.  Im having a little paranoid/ magical thinking but am still at the point that I can say, wait, that's prob not real.  Really,  really hoping i dont get to the point where logic goes out the window. 
Idk posting because i told myself I'd post to this page in the good and the bad.  Even though I feel amazing right now I know it's a bad thing a) because I can very possibly lose touch with reality b) there is an inevitable crash heading my way.
Keep me in your thoughts y'all and share how you ride the wave.

#bipolaradvocate #bipolarmemes #bipolar #bipolarawareness #manicdepressive #mania #hypomania #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #givemeadvice
  • So I thought I was just in a good mood because good things were happening but nope sky rocketing into mania again. Im currently hypomanic, meaning I'm still functioning. My energy level is wwaayy up, irritable, posting to social media a lot, starting a million projects, taking on more than I can handle but rocking the attitude that I can do any damn thing, obsessing about things. Did I mention my energy level?! Wtaf, I could seriously build a pyramid right now 😂. The good news: I'm aware of it. Have a teledoc appointment with my psych today and gonna talk about ways to prevent full blown mania, possibly more meds, idk. The wierd thing is usually when I'm manic I run on 4ish hours of sleep and am still super hyper, but I'm sleeping pretty normally. Usually, if i recognize the early signs i make myself sleep more and that sometimes helps me not go completely crazy. Im having a little paranoid/ magical thinking but am still at the point that I can say, wait, that's prob not real. Really, really hoping i dont get to the point where logic goes out the window.
    Idk posting because i told myself I'd post to this page in the good and the bad. Even though I feel amazing right now I know it's a bad thing a) because I can very possibly lose touch with reality b) there is an inevitable crash heading my way.
    Keep me in your thoughts y'all and share how you ride the wave.

    #bipolaradvocate #bipolarmemes #bipolar #bipolarawareness #manicdepressive #mania #hypomania #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #givemeadvice

  •  197  16  30 April, 2020
  • If anyone else needs to see this.  Im going through a rough patch but am handling it so well largely due to being in a stable place already.  I lost my 11 year old kitty yesterday and am devastated but still managing to care for my son and get my ass to work.  I also surprisingly kept it professional at work and didnt cry except for my drive in and home and a little on break.  Last time I lost a pet it was my little pet rat who I had for about 3 years and I went into a deep depression and was drinking a lot because I was so devastated.  I think this time being on meds and in therapy I am handling it appropriately. Im sad and heartbroken but I also understand life goes on and I'll always have our memories. 
#awareness #storeboughtisfine #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #mentalhealth #bipolarsupport #bipolaradvocate #manicdepressive #myjourney #growth
  • If anyone else needs to see this. Im going through a rough patch but am handling it so well largely due to being in a stable place already. I lost my 11 year old kitty yesterday and am devastated but still managing to care for my son and get my ass to work. I also surprisingly kept it professional at work and didnt cry except for my drive in and home and a little on break. Last time I lost a pet it was my little pet rat who I had for about 3 years and I went into a deep depression and was drinking a lot because I was so devastated. I think this time being on meds and in therapy I am handling it appropriately. Im sad and heartbroken but I also understand life goes on and I'll always have our memories.
    #awareness #storeboughtisfine #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthishealth #mentalhealth #bipolarsupport #bipolaradvocate #manicdepressive #myjourney #growth

  •  27  8  14 February, 2020
  • can't get out of my bed, think there's magnets in my mattress
Might as well just be a casket for all I care
Oh no, here we go again
The bad thoughts are creeping in
The bad thoughts are creeping in
When I feel crazy, I hide it, then fall apart in private
Where my mirror's the only one who sees my tears
There's a method to my sadness, it's a chemical imbalance
And my head is damaged way beyond repair
I'm a manic depressive, passive aggressive, emotionally repressed
Introverted extroverted, melancholic, alcoholic mess
I wish my inner thoughts were dinner conversation
I wished on every star and every constellation
Oh, manic, oh, manic, oh (I'm a manic depressive)
... Some days, I wish I was dead
Think I'm broken, I can't fix it
It's an intangible sickness, but it's there
Oh no, here we go again
The bad thoughts are creeping in
The bad thoughts are creeping in
So I wrestle my demons 'til I go off the deep end
Where I'm drowning and I can't come up for air
I've tried every medication and I've gone in hibernation
Hiding in my room like a bipolar bear

I'm obsessive, compulsive, and self-destructive
Hey, what did you expect?
Narcissistic and neurotic, I'm just one big ball of stress
I wish my inner thoughts were dinner conversation
I wished on every star and every constellation
I wish that I was calm and wasn't always anxious
The bad thoughts are creeping in
  • can't get out of my bed, think there's magnets in my mattress
    Might as well just be a casket for all I care
    Oh no, here we go again
    The bad thoughts are creeping in
    The bad thoughts are creeping in
    When I feel crazy, I hide it, then fall apart in private
    Where my mirror's the only one who sees my tears
    There's a method to my sadness, it's a chemical imbalance
    And my head is damaged way beyond repair
    I'm a manic depressive, passive aggressive, emotionally repressed
    Introverted extroverted, melancholic, alcoholic mess
    I wish my inner thoughts were dinner conversation
    I wished on every star and every constellation
    Oh, manic, oh, manic, oh (I'm a manic depressive)
    ... Some days, I wish I was dead
    Think I'm broken, I can't fix it
    It's an intangible sickness, but it's there
    Oh no, here we go again
    The bad thoughts are creeping in
    The bad thoughts are creeping in
    So I wrestle my demons 'til I go off the deep end
    Where I'm drowning and I can't come up for air
    I've tried every medication and I've gone in hibernation
    Hiding in my room like a bipolar bear

    I'm obsessive, compulsive, and self-destructive
    Hey, what did you expect?
    Narcissistic and neurotic, I'm just one big ball of stress
    I wish my inner thoughts were dinner conversation
    I wished on every star and every constellation
    I wish that I was calm and wasn't always anxious
    The bad thoughts are creeping in

  •  19  5  21 April, 2020