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This message goes out to you all who did not have the unconditional love, support and safety you should of had growing up 💕⠀
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As an adult our childhood traumas can leave big scars but I am proud of you all for surviving ⠀⠀
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The wounded child in you deserves the unconditional love and respect you were never shown. Be your own Carer & show yourself how it should feel to be loved ⠀⠀
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You are enough, you always have been and I am sorry that someone made you feel you weren’t 💕⠀
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #youareenough #youareworthy #youareimportant #bekindtoyourself #bekindtoyourmind ⠀
#childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #depression #depressionawareness #anxiety #anxietyawareness
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    This message goes out to you all who did not have the unconditional love, support and safety you should of had growing up 💕⠀
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    As an adult our childhood traumas can leave big scars but I am proud of you all for surviving ⠀⠀

    The wounded child in you deserves the unconditional love and respect you were never shown. Be your own Carer & show yourself how it should feel to be loved ⠀⠀

    You are enough, you always have been and I am sorry that someone made you feel you weren’t 💕⠀
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    #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #youareenough #youareworthy #youareimportant #bekindtoyourself #bekindtoyourmind
    #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #depression #depressionawareness #anxiety #anxietyawareness

  •  69  12  28 May, 2020
  • This body of work on a tiny desk. I still daydream about owning a home with a studio. One day.
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This project is about a number of things. Parenthood after surviving both childhood abuse and intimate partner violence and leaving both of those toxic situations. Parental love, which is more massive and intense than anything I’ve ever experienced. My own road to healing-that healing is created by doing the work and creating new neural pathways, owning my shit, being able to say I’m sorry, wading through my own triggers. My daughter, who is filled with joy and light and love, and let’s face it, a whole lot of sass. And now, a pandemic. Moving past these things with plenty of time to think.
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#childhoodabuseawareness #therapy #feminist #motherhood #drawing #illustration #typography #domesticviolenceawareness #childhood #toddler #love #joy #selfawareness #embroidery #modernmaker #blockletters #daisystitch #frechknots #negativespace #cherryblossom #linework #toneontone #lavender #contemporaryembroidery #dmcthreads #hoopart #fiberart #needlecraft #pittsburghartist #roanokeartist
  • This body of work on a tiny desk. I still daydream about owning a home with a studio. One day.
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    This project is about a number of things. Parenthood after surviving both childhood abuse and intimate partner violence and leaving both of those toxic situations. Parental love, which is more massive and intense than anything I’ve ever experienced. My own road to healing-that healing is created by doing the work and creating new neural pathways, owning my shit, being able to say I’m sorry, wading through my own triggers. My daughter, who is filled with joy and light and love, and let’s face it, a whole lot of sass. And now, a pandemic. Moving past these things with plenty of time to think.
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    #childhoodabuseawareness #therapy #feminist #motherhood #drawing #illustration #typography #domesticviolenceawareness #childhood #toddler #love #joy #selfawareness #embroidery #modernmaker #blockletters #daisystitch #frechknots #negativespace #cherryblossom #linework #toneontone #lavender #contemporaryembroidery #dmcthreads #hoopart #fiberart #needlecraft #pittsburghartist #roanokeartist

  •  19  3  2 May, 2020
  • Had a tough time last night thinking about what help we could have gotten if people had seen our cries for help. If someone had reached out. If someone had asked if we were okay. But no one ever did. Maybe stuff wouldn’t have turned out this way. -D #cptsd #did #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativedisorder #dissociation #depression #ptsd #trauma #traumarecovery #bpd #mpd #mentalhealth #mentalhealthquotes #dissociative #derealization #depersonalization #osdd #ddnos #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #abusesurvivor #abuseawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #traumaawareness #traumasurvivor #ptsdawareness
  • Had a tough time last night thinking about what help we could have gotten if people had seen our cries for help. If someone had reached out. If someone had asked if we were okay. But no one ever did. Maybe stuff wouldn’t have turned out this way. -D #cptsd #did #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativedisorder #dissociation #depression #ptsd #trauma #traumarecovery #bpd #mpd #mentalhealth #mentalhealthquotes #dissociative #derealization #depersonalization #osdd #ddnos #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #abusesurvivor #abuseawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #traumaawareness #traumasurvivor #ptsdawareness

  •  13  0  27 April, 2020
  • • I’m not sure I could do it justice to review this book or to summarize what it has meant to me. I will say this: Pete Walker’s work and this book, in particular, have been enormously validating and instrumental to my healing. He is a survivor of immense childhood trauma and has spent his life healing and helping others believe it is possible for them as well. I can’t say enough good things about his work. .
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An excerpt: “The greatest turning point in my life was supplanting my quest for permanent happiness and transcendence with a stubborn willingness to be there for myself in every feeling state. The rewards of this have been wondrous. Sometimes my tears are like jewels that refract resplendent colorfulness into my life. My anger now comes as a gentle flame that warms me with an ever-increasing passion for life. My fear is sometimes a beacon that illuminates new pathways for me to follow into a wider appreciation of life. My envy shows me what I still yearn to develop in myself.” .
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#tellyourstory #complextrauma #cptsd #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #childabusepreventionmonth #psychologicalabuse #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticmother #narcissisticfather #motherwound #fatherwound #innerchild #innerchildhealing #healingjourney #emdr #emdrtherapy #petewalker #petewalkercptsd #fightflightfreezefawn #brainhealth #emotionalintelligence #empathy #empathymatters #emotionsmatter #faith #hope #love #spiritleadme
  • • I’m not sure I could do it justice to review this book or to summarize what it has meant to me. I will say this: Pete Walker’s work and this book, in particular, have been enormously validating and instrumental to my healing. He is a survivor of immense childhood trauma and has spent his life healing and helping others believe it is possible for them as well. I can’t say enough good things about his work. .
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    An excerpt: “The greatest turning point in my life was supplanting my quest for permanent happiness and transcendence with a stubborn willingness to be there for myself in every feeling state. The rewards of this have been wondrous. Sometimes my tears are like jewels that refract resplendent colorfulness into my life. My anger now comes as a gentle flame that warms me with an ever-increasing passion for life. My fear is sometimes a beacon that illuminates new pathways for me to follow into a wider appreciation of life. My envy shows me what I still yearn to develop in myself.” .
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    #tellyourstory #complextrauma #cptsd #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #childabusepreventionmonth #psychologicalabuse #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticmother #narcissisticfather #motherwound #fatherwound #innerchild #innerchildhealing #healingjourney #emdr #emdrtherapy #petewalker #petewalkercptsd #fightflightfreezefawn #brainhealth #emotionalintelligence #empathy #empathymatters #emotionsmatter #faith #hope #love #spiritleadme

  •  46  11  26 April, 2020
  • Missing having a full schedule but it’s given me some time to create a morning routine - part of that includes listening to some powerful preaching by @charlgambill I’m going to quote what really spoke to me today: “Some people have had things written over their lives for a long time that are the lie of the enemy. Let’s be the ones that pick up the pen and write the truth over people in this season.  Write the truth of who they are through God’s lens. And let us relabel some things in this time because we’re willing in lock down to write some new letters.” If you’ve experienced narcissistic abuse especially as a child you know these lies are real. I just want to tell you that if you’re being gaslit, minimized, verbally or otherwise attacked, etc. and life feels a little hopeless and your abuser is telling you that you are worthless through their words and actions. DONT. BELIEVE. IT.

My life has dramatically changed from when I was abused. And a big part of that is knowing through the abuse that I had INHERENT WORTH. Worth I’ve never had to earn. Worth I was born with as a child of God. Your abuser will try to demoralize you but they can never take what was never theirs to give. Know your worth and walk away. 
Lastly I want to share the Bible verse that I’ve leaned on in healing from abuse and speaking about it. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. I love the book of Timothy and highly recommend reading it.

In this season of life I’m praying for healing for you if you’ve gone through anything like this. I’m praying you slow down, reflect, write, and heal ❤️ Life is pretty great when you know you’re loved by God and write your own story after abuse. I’m currently reading an awesome book on healing from abuse and planing to do a YT video review on it. Healing is beautiful ❤️ #childhoodabuseawareness 
#healing 
#livethelifeyouwant 
#godisgood 
Photo by @marybreuerphotos
  • Missing having a full schedule but it’s given me some time to create a morning routine - part of that includes listening to some powerful preaching by @charlgambill I’m going to quote what really spoke to me today: “Some people have had things written over their lives for a long time that are the lie of the enemy. Let’s be the ones that pick up the pen and write the truth over people in this season. Write the truth of who they are through God’s lens. And let us relabel some things in this time because we’re willing in lock down to write some new letters.” If you’ve experienced narcissistic abuse especially as a child you know these lies are real. I just want to tell you that if you’re being gaslit, minimized, verbally or otherwise attacked, etc. and life feels a little hopeless and your abuser is telling you that you are worthless through their words and actions. DONT. BELIEVE. IT.

    My life has dramatically changed from when I was abused. And a big part of that is knowing through the abuse that I had INHERENT WORTH. Worth I’ve never had to earn. Worth I was born with as a child of God. Your abuser will try to demoralize you but they can never take what was never theirs to give. Know your worth and walk away.
    Lastly I want to share the Bible verse that I’ve leaned on in healing from abuse and speaking about it. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. I love the book of Timothy and highly recommend reading it.

    In this season of life I’m praying for healing for you if you’ve gone through anything like this. I’m praying you slow down, reflect, write, and heal ❤️ Life is pretty great when you know you’re loved by God and write your own story after abuse. I’m currently reading an awesome book on healing from abuse and planing to do a YT video review on it. Healing is beautiful ❤️ #childhoodabuseawareness
    #healing
    #livethelifeyouwant
    #godisgood
    Photo by @marybreuerphotos

  •  13  2  25 April, 2020
  • What a whirlwind of the last week 🤪. IT’S APRIL! Still... which is a good thing for me! Cause, I didn’t miss out on an opportunity to pass the pinwheel! 💙For... #childhoodabuseprevention #childhoodabuseawareness & you can read my blog at www.sirenscalltosweets.com where I highlighted 
@h.a.v.e.n.familyresourcecenter & how they help in our community. 💙Use this extra time with the kids to be creative and create your own pinwheel. I decided to make sugar cookie pinwheels cause I don’t have sidewalk chalk but if you have some laying around  you can even draw one on the driveway for peeps to see that you stand with #childhoodabuseprevention then take a picture of your creation & post it with any & all of the hashtags you see here!! #pinwheelsforprevention #chalkcampaign4kids 💙✌🏻LET ME SEE YOUR PINWHEELS!!! 💙✌🏻
  • What a whirlwind of the last week 🤪. IT’S APRIL! Still... which is a good thing for me! Cause, I didn’t miss out on an opportunity to pass the pinwheel! 💙For... #childhoodabuseprevention #childhoodabuseawareness & you can read my blog at www.sirenscalltosweets.com where I highlighted
    @h.a.v.e.n.familyresourcecenter & how they help in our community. 💙Use this extra time with the kids to be creative and create your own pinwheel. I decided to make sugar cookie pinwheels cause I don’t have sidewalk chalk but if you have some laying around you can even draw one on the driveway for peeps to see that you stand with #childhoodabuseprevention then take a picture of your creation & post it with any & all of the hashtags you see here!! #pinwheelsforprevention #chalkcampaign4kids 💙✌🏻LET ME SEE YOUR PINWHEELS!!! 💙✌🏻

  •  16  0  22 April, 2020
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👎🏼PARANOID THOUGHTS👎🏼 Something that can come along with cPTSD is paranoia. Paranoid thoughts can be really difficult to live with. Trauma, specifically in my case, verbal and psychological abuse has led to my cPTSD and paranoid thoughts/overthinking. Listed above are just a handful of my paranoid thoughts. Paranoid thoughts used to rule my life, sometimes they still can, just not as much. I always let myself feel how I’m feeling, highlight why I’m feeling the specific thought and try work through it. Do you have paranoid thoughts? And if so how do you manage with them? Remember to always be kind to yourself 💛
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    👎🏼PARANOID THOUGHTS👎🏼 Something that can come along with cPTSD is paranoia. Paranoid thoughts can be really difficult to live with. Trauma, specifically in my case, verbal and psychological abuse has led to my cPTSD and paranoid thoughts/overthinking. Listed above are just a handful of my paranoid thoughts. Paranoid thoughts used to rule my life, sometimes they still can, just not as much. I always let myself feel how I’m feeling, highlight why I’m feeling the specific thought and try work through it. Do you have paranoid thoughts? And if so how do you manage with them? Remember to always be kind to yourself 💛
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  •  25  3  20 April, 2020
  • I feel a lot of these things on a daily basis. Something I’ve been struggling with recently is overthinking little things and being paranoid. It’s one of the main trauma responses I have from what I’ve been through. 
I also need a lot of reassurance from my partner and can sometimes be scared to ask for this because I don’t want to put pressure on her or feel like I’m bothering her. Because as a child my feelings were never listened to or understood, I was never reassured, comforted, I was left to fight all battles by myself, I sometimes still do this. I sometimes fear to ask for reassurance in case of rejection. A lot of my reactions are due to fear. I still fear being abandoned, rejected and ignored by the ones I love, therefore, I find it really difficult to be open and honest with them sometimes. Even when I am open and honest and they do not give me the response I wanted (which is no ones fault and nothing to feel guilt or shame over) I struggle even further. I’ve learned though that communication is so important. To discuss HOW I am feeling, WHY I am feeling and how (and if) I can change it. If I can change it, let’s try. If not, let’s sit through the uncomfortable feelings - it’s hard but it needs to be done to move forward in the healing process. I can be honest, open and vulnerable enough to admit that I’m paranoid nearly everyday of my life because of my cPTSD, I battle with it everyday but I get up and I keep going because there is still hope that I am worth it and I am loved. Always. And there’s hope for you too. Maybe a future post about paranoid thoughts and how I get through them if anyone would like. - TNB
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#cptsd #cptsdrecovery #traumarecovery #cptsdawareness #cptsdsurvivor #cptsdwarrior #trauma #traumahealing #traumainformed #traumasurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthtips #healing #healingjourney #abusesurvivor #childabuse #abuserecovery #childhoodabusesurvivor #childhoodabuseawareness #childhoodabuse
  • I feel a lot of these things on a daily basis. Something I’ve been struggling with recently is overthinking little things and being paranoid. It’s one of the main trauma responses I have from what I’ve been through.
    I also need a lot of reassurance from my partner and can sometimes be scared to ask for this because I don’t want to put pressure on her or feel like I’m bothering her. Because as a child my feelings were never listened to or understood, I was never reassured, comforted, I was left to fight all battles by myself, I sometimes still do this. I sometimes fear to ask for reassurance in case of rejection. A lot of my reactions are due to fear. I still fear being abandoned, rejected and ignored by the ones I love, therefore, I find it really difficult to be open and honest with them sometimes. Even when I am open and honest and they do not give me the response I wanted (which is no ones fault and nothing to feel guilt or shame over) I struggle even further. I’ve learned though that communication is so important. To discuss HOW I am feeling, WHY I am feeling and how (and if) I can change it. If I can change it, let’s try. If not, let’s sit through the uncomfortable feelings - it’s hard but it needs to be done to move forward in the healing process. I can be honest, open and vulnerable enough to admit that I’m paranoid nearly everyday of my life because of my cPTSD, I battle with it everyday but I get up and I keep going because there is still hope that I am worth it and I am loved. Always. And there’s hope for you too. Maybe a future post about paranoid thoughts and how I get through them if anyone would like. - TNB







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  •  44  2  19 April, 2020
  • What do you do when you don’t get the much needed apology you so deserve? This is a topic I see often in my counseling sessions. Follow the link to my blog to determine if it’s time to stop playing the waiting game ❤️
  • What do you do when you don’t get the much needed apology you so deserve? This is a topic I see often in my counseling sessions. Follow the link to my blog to determine if it’s time to stop playing the waiting game ❤️

  •  18  5  15 April, 2020
  • Healing My Childhood Trauma 🦋 •
I was so young when it started. I was 12 when it stopped. He was arrested. Everyone wanted to know what happened. The questions were many. So many questions. So many people. I couldn’t find my words.
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They wanted me to talk, but I was frozen for 6 years. Thawing would take time. I couldn’t say it all in an interrogation-which it was. They didn’t know then what they know now about being trauma informed.
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They kept asking me to tell them everything. I couldn’t. I could only tell them what I couldn’t forget! That was what stood out the most. What I couldn’t forget!
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April is sexual assault awareness month. Since the day I got sober, I’ve done my part to move past the pain and help others. It took 27 years to get the help I needed, but I got it. The 2 trauma therapists I had knew exactly how to help me move past the mental blocks, break down the stale emotional energy and release the terrifying memories so that I could finally begin to heal!
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The post prior to this one shows a few of the books that helped me heal and understand how the trauma was stored in my body and my memory. These books helped me so that the trauma no longer haunted me.
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Trauma was the gateway to my substance abuse and mental health diagnosis. Getting sober and going to therapy was the catalyst to my healing journey so that I could become the woman I had always wanted to be! ❤️
Embracing the courage through resilience outside of the story I once told to protect myself. Truth and bravery to keep moving forward.
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#asoberauthor #traumatherapy #traumahealing #endchildsexualabuse #vulnerabilityisstrength #iamresilient #dothework #overcomingabuse #overcomingobstacles #nomorestigma #survıvor #soberquarantine #speakingmytruth #ptsdsurvivor #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #thebodykeepsthescore #rewritingmystory #recoveryprocess #breakingthesilence #endingthestigma #breakthecycle #saam #childhoodabuseawareness #savingmylife #healingtrauma #selfcompassion #selflovejourney #teentraumarecovery #ownyourpower
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    I was so young when it started. I was 12 when it stopped. He was arrested. Everyone wanted to know what happened. The questions were many. So many questions. So many people. I couldn’t find my words.

    They wanted me to talk, but I was frozen for 6 years. Thawing would take time. I couldn’t say it all in an interrogation-which it was. They didn’t know then what they know now about being trauma informed.

    They kept asking me to tell them everything. I couldn’t. I could only tell them what I couldn’t forget! That was what stood out the most. What I couldn’t forget!

    April is sexual assault awareness month. Since the day I got sober, I’ve done my part to move past the pain and help others. It took 27 years to get the help I needed, but I got it. The 2 trauma therapists I had knew exactly how to help me move past the mental blocks, break down the stale emotional energy and release the terrifying memories so that I could finally begin to heal!

    The post prior to this one shows a few of the books that helped me heal and understand how the trauma was stored in my body and my memory. These books helped me so that the trauma no longer haunted me.

    Trauma was the gateway to my substance abuse and mental health diagnosis. Getting sober and going to therapy was the catalyst to my healing journey so that I could become the woman I had always wanted to be! ❤️
    Embracing the courage through resilience outside of the story I once told to protect myself. Truth and bravery to keep moving forward.

    #asoberauthor #traumatherapy #traumahealing #endchildsexualabuse #vulnerabilityisstrength #iamresilient #dothework #overcomingabuse #overcomingobstacles #nomorestigma #survıvor #soberquarantine #speakingmytruth #ptsdsurvivor #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #thebodykeepsthescore #rewritingmystory #recoveryprocess #breakingthesilence #endingthestigma #breakthecycle #saam #childhoodabuseawareness #savingmylife #healingtrauma #selfcompassion #selflovejourney #teentraumarecovery #ownyourpower

  •  55  11  13 April, 2020
  • This truly captured my heart. I wish I had someone to write a letter like this to me back when I needed it. Several years ago, I wrote a letter to a young woman I did not know  who had recently come out about her childhood sex abuse and gave it to a wonderful friend who helps these survivors. I didn’t realize how much this simple, to me, letter would have an impact. I wish I had that letter still, to remind where I was and where I am. 
There are more children that suffer from being sexually abused that I really want to know about. I wish I could be blissfully unaware but I’m not. It makes me sick knowing other innocent children felt that way I did. I’ve always been open with my kids about my story and taught them about good touch and bad touch. It should be something taught in schools starting as young as possible. Protect our kids ❤️ #survivor #abuseawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #teachyourchildrenwell
  • This truly captured my heart. I wish I had someone to write a letter like this to me back when I needed it. Several years ago, I wrote a letter to a young woman I did not know who had recently come out about her childhood sex abuse and gave it to a wonderful friend who helps these survivors. I didn’t realize how much this simple, to me, letter would have an impact. I wish I had that letter still, to remind where I was and where I am.
    There are more children that suffer from being sexually abused that I really want to know about. I wish I could be blissfully unaware but I’m not. It makes me sick knowing other innocent children felt that way I did. I’ve always been open with my kids about my story and taught them about good touch and bad touch. It should be something taught in schools starting as young as possible. Protect our kids ❤️ #survivor #abuseawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #teachyourchildrenwell

  •  9  0  11 April, 2020
  • April is National #ChildAbusePreventionMonth. Every day, more than five children die because of child abuse. This type of abuse spans across all socioeconomic classes, races, religions, and levels of education. Therefore, it’s so important we are all able to recognize the signs. Learn more about how to prevent and recognize child abuse: https://bit.ly/ChildAbusePreventionMonthBT #childhoodabuseawareness #endthesilence #youmatter
  • April is National #ChildAbusePreventionMonth. Every day, more than five children die because of child abuse. This type of abuse spans across all socioeconomic classes, races, religions, and levels of education. Therefore, it’s so important we are all able to recognize the signs. Learn more about how to prevent and recognize child abuse: https://bit.ly/ChildAbusePreventionMonthBT #childhoodabuseawareness #endthesilence #youmatter

  •  8  0  8 April, 2020
  • Time lapse fun. Or, the things I think about in lockdown.
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Some years ago (he) sat me down for an hour long diatribe about his absolute embarrassment of me as an artist instead of something more lucrative. He methodically tore apart everything I ever painted, my motivations for painting, and some other scarring things long since forgotten. I put my brushes down, and hated myself for doing so.
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It reminded me of growing up hearing that I wasn’t smart enough to go to college (graduated summa cum laude), wasn’t extroverted or functional enough to follow my desired career, was not anything at all unless I agreed to what (they) believed without question or thought, lest I be labeled an idiot, or worse. It triggered my history of abuse, what I had survived, and I put brushes down and hated myself for it.
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Then came my daughter. My reason to get my sh*t together, my reason for no f*cks given, my reason to be my full self. I started making art again. Subtle, sassy things. My personal middle finger to the person hurting me while I made a plan.
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Then I left and sometime later decided to paint again.
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And my work was happier for my lack of f*cks or desire for approval. My life became happier in freedom. If you left those people aiming to control you, tear you down, or worse-I applaud you knowing that it was likely the toughest and best decision of your life. Keep making, keep living.
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#ptsdawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #lockdown #june10 #embroidery #mixedmedia #contemporaryembroidery #hoopart #needlecraft #pittsburgh #irrelevantartist #illustration #embroideryflowers #linework #imagination #toddler #2020 #pittsburghartist #blueridgemountains #roanoke
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    Some years ago (he) sat me down for an hour long diatribe about his absolute embarrassment of me as an artist instead of something more lucrative. He methodically tore apart everything I ever painted, my motivations for painting, and some other scarring things long since forgotten. I put my brushes down, and hated myself for doing so.
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    It reminded me of growing up hearing that I wasn’t smart enough to go to college (graduated summa cum laude), wasn’t extroverted or functional enough to follow my desired career, was not anything at all unless I agreed to what (they) believed without question or thought, lest I be labeled an idiot, or worse. It triggered my history of abuse, what I had survived, and I put brushes down and hated myself for it.
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    And my work was happier for my lack of f*cks or desire for approval. My life became happier in freedom. If you left those people aiming to control you, tear you down, or worse-I applaud you knowing that it was likely the toughest and best decision of your life. Keep making, keep living.
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    #ptsdawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #childhoodabuseawareness #lockdown #june10 #embroidery #mixedmedia #contemporaryembroidery #hoopart #needlecraft #pittsburgh #irrelevantartist #illustration #embroideryflowers #linework #imagination #toddler #2020 #pittsburghartist #blueridgemountains #roanoke

  •  24  6  6 April, 2020
  • DreamBee Foundation was founded in 2015 as a 501(c) (3) nonprofit corporation. 🐝 
Our mission is to Eradicate Child Abuse, and our purpose is to develop much needed financial resources to fund the fight against all forms of child abuse.  We provide grants to organizations whose mission, values, objectives, and outcomes align with the Foundation's mission, values, and goals.

We invite and encourage Donors aka Pollinators to join us in our mission to change society by making a minimum pledge of $52 per year; the estimated cost of one cup of coffee per week for 52 weeks.  100% of your contribution will go toward the mission.

DreamBee Foundation invests in a range of community-based organizations in targeted areas to support and protect those who are at the greatest risk of child abuse.  DreamBee Foundation invests in Best in Class prevention and intervention initiatives scaling those that succeed at making a material impact in eradicating Child Abuse throughout the United States.
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Our funding is informed by the needs and expertise of local partners working to eradicate child abuse.  We are committed to spending Donor contributions smartly and in doing so we will use both qualitative and quantitative information to assess outcomes.  We are also committed to educating our Donors on the results of their investments.
#DreamBee #Pollinator #NonProfit #NorthCarolina #Foundation #ChildhoodAbuseAwareness #April
  • DreamBee Foundation was founded in 2015 as a 501(c) (3) nonprofit corporation. 🐝
    Our mission is to Eradicate Child Abuse, and our purpose is to develop much needed financial resources to fund the fight against all forms of child abuse. We provide grants to organizations whose mission, values, objectives, and outcomes align with the Foundation's mission, values, and goals.

    We invite and encourage Donors aka Pollinators to join us in our mission to change society by making a minimum pledge of $52 per year; the estimated cost of one cup of coffee per week for 52 weeks. 100% of your contribution will go toward the mission.

    DreamBee Foundation invests in a range of community-based organizations in targeted areas to support and protect those who are at the greatest risk of child abuse. DreamBee Foundation invests in Best in Class prevention and intervention initiatives scaling those that succeed at making a material impact in eradicating Child Abuse throughout the United States.
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    Our funding is informed by the needs and expertise of local partners working to eradicate child abuse. We are committed to spending Donor contributions smartly and in doing so we will use both qualitative and quantitative information to assess outcomes. We are also committed to educating our Donors on the results of their investments.
    #DreamBee #Pollinator #NonProfit #NorthCarolina #Foundation #ChildhoodAbuseAwareness #April

  •  11  2  6 April, 2020
  • Wearing blue to support our philanthropy of childhood abuse awareness!💙 April is childhood abuse awareness and prevention month. This is also our Delta Kappa Delta Sorority, Inc. philanthropy and we love to focus many of our events & service projects around our philanthropy! Throughout the month of April, we’ll be sharing facts, stats, and information about Childhood Abuse Awareness and how we can do our part to protect the children of our communities! •
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#deltakappadelta #deltakappadeltasororityinc #servicesorority #sisterhood #bu23 #bu22 #bu21 #childhoodabuseawareness #recruitment #givingback #springrecruitment #baylordkd #zetachapter #budkd #sisterhoodbuiltthroughservice
  • Wearing blue to support our philanthropy of childhood abuse awareness!💙 April is childhood abuse awareness and prevention month. This is also our Delta Kappa Delta Sorority, Inc. philanthropy and we love to focus many of our events & service projects around our philanthropy! Throughout the month of April, we’ll be sharing facts, stats, and information about Childhood Abuse Awareness and how we can do our part to protect the children of our communities! •



    #deltakappadelta #deltakappadeltasororityinc #servicesorority #sisterhood #bu23 #bu22 #bu21 #childhoodabuseawareness #recruitment #givingback #springrecruitment #baylordkd #zetachapter #budkd #sisterhoodbuiltthroughservice

  •  97  2  3 April, 2020
  • Compassion Prison Project ~ One of the projects I’m working on. As we are now staying #saferathome and many people are finding themselves taking a deeper journey inward, I’ve noticed a lot of conversations have had a similar theme: how globally we are now all in this thing together and how our human condition is shared. Trauma, pain, healing, fear, love, compassion, connection...how we are handling isolation and how we are still finding ourselves connecting. I’m truly grateful to bare witness and I’m hopeful for a more beautiful and sustainable planet on all fronts: because we are all ONE. ❤️🌎❤️
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“We’re not on our journey to save the world but to save ourselves. But in doing that - you save the world.” ~ Joseph Campbell .
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For more information click link in bio, visit @compassion.prison.project or DM me for more ways to help support this amazing work. #compassionprisonproject
  • Compassion Prison Project ~ One of the projects I’m working on. As we are now staying #saferathome and many people are finding themselves taking a deeper journey inward, I’ve noticed a lot of conversations have had a similar theme: how globally we are now all in this thing together and how our human condition is shared. Trauma, pain, healing, fear, love, compassion, connection...how we are handling isolation and how we are still finding ourselves connecting. I’m truly grateful to bare witness and I’m hopeful for a more beautiful and sustainable planet on all fronts: because we are all ONE. ❤️🌎❤️
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    “We’re not on our journey to save the world but to save ourselves. But in doing that - you save the world.” ~ Joseph Campbell .
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    For more information click link in bio, visit @compassion.prison.project or DM me for more ways to help support this amazing work. #compassionprisonproject

  •  44  5  31 March, 2020
  • I had my first surgery at 3 years old, to remove a foreign object placed inside my body. ••Exposed to sex around age 4-5 years old. ••Porn around 7 or 8 years old. ••Raped by a major male figure in my life around 7-9 years old, so that we could live in a house (this is known today as human trafficking). Testified in court, but out of fear stayed quiet to protect my mom. ••Molested by every male figure in my life from 7-12 years old. ••In promiscuous and unhealthy sexual relationships from 13-25 years old. ••Let's be mindful today, that not every home is safe.••Believers in Christ, let's be praying fervent and bold prayers against forces of evil.•• #voiceforthevoiceless #awareness #childhoodabuseawareness #survivor #notforsale #whenhomeisntsafe #humantraffickingawareness #moderndayslavery #forcesofevil #powerofprayer #Jesusisthewaythetruthandthelife #Psalm139 #humanrights #hope #truth #madenewinChrist #forgiveness #girlsetfree #keepingeverygirlfree
  • I had my first surgery at 3 years old, to remove a foreign object placed inside my body. ••Exposed to sex around age 4-5 years old. ••Porn around 7 or 8 years old. ••Raped by a major male figure in my life around 7-9 years old, so that we could live in a house (this is known today as human trafficking). Testified in court, but out of fear stayed quiet to protect my mom. ••Molested by every male figure in my life from 7-12 years old. ••In promiscuous and unhealthy sexual relationships from 13-25 years old. ••Let's be mindful today, that not every home is safe.••Believers in Christ, let's be praying fervent and bold prayers against forces of evil.•• #voiceforthevoiceless #awareness #childhoodabuseawareness #survivor #notforsale #whenhomeisntsafe #humantraffickingawareness #moderndayslavery #forcesofevil #powerofprayer #Jesusisthewaythetruthandthelife #Psalm139 #humanrights #hope #truth #madenewinChrist #forgiveness #girlsetfree #keepingeverygirlfree

  •  18  2  24 March, 2020
  • I had my first surgery at 3 years old, to remove a foreign object placed inside my body. ••Exposed to sex around age 4-5 years old. ••Porn around 7 or 8 years old. ••Raped by a major male figure in my life around 7-9 years old, so that we could live in a house (this is known today as human trafficking). Testified in court, but out of fear stayed quiet to protect my mom. ••Molested by every male figure in my life from 7-12 years old. ••In promiscuous and unhealthy sexual relationships from 13-25 years old. ••Let's be mindful today, that not every home is safe.••Believers in Christ, let's be praying fervent and bold prayers against forces of evil.••
#voiceforthevoiceless #awareness #childhoodabuseawareness #survivor #notforsale #whenhomeisntsafe #humantraffickingawareness #moderndayslavery #forcesofevil #powerofprayer #Jesusisthewaythetruthandthelife #Psalm139 #humanrights #hope #truth #madenewinChrist #forgiveness #girlsetfree #keepingeverygirlfree
  • I had my first surgery at 3 years old, to remove a foreign object placed inside my body. ••Exposed to sex around age 4-5 years old. ••Porn around 7 or 8 years old. ••Raped by a major male figure in my life around 7-9 years old, so that we could live in a house (this is known today as human trafficking). Testified in court, but out of fear stayed quiet to protect my mom. ••Molested by every male figure in my life from 7-12 years old. ••In promiscuous and unhealthy sexual relationships from 13-25 years old. ••Let's be mindful today, that not every home is safe.••Believers in Christ, let's be praying fervent and bold prayers against forces of evil.••
    #voiceforthevoiceless #awareness #childhoodabuseawareness #survivor #notforsale #whenhomeisntsafe #humantraffickingawareness #moderndayslavery #forcesofevil #powerofprayer #Jesusisthewaythetruthandthelife #Psalm139 #humanrights #hope #truth #madenewinChrist #forgiveness #girlsetfree #keepingeverygirlfree

  •  60  43  24 March, 2020
  • Looking back.  I was living to die.  Drank like a fish, drove with a death wish,  and ate like there was no tomorrow.  That can I'm holding in my hand is a beer can.  That can was full before I poured it down my shirt...why. I have no idea but I was beyond wasted and had lost all control of myself.  At that time I had broke up with the love of my life💙 and If I wasnt trying to kill myself with alcohol i was doing it with food.  The woman on the right is me now.  I rarely drink.  I cruz instead of speed and I eat to live not live to eat.  My life is not a gamble anymore and I can say I love myself without question.  Too bad all this change came to me at a later age but I'm grateful I turned my life around.  #weightlossjourney #RELENTLESS #weightloss #weightlosscommunity #iCanAndiWill #progressnotperfection #OneDayAtATime #goalsANDshit #motivation #dedication #Determination #discipline #ImStrongerThanMySymptoms #determind #iWillWinThisFight #DepressionSucks #MommyIssues #AbandonmentIssues #ChildhoodAbuseAwareness #ImStrongerThanMyPast #ItWasNotMyFault
 #bariatricsurgery #bariatriclife #bariatric #bariatriccommunity #livingmybestlife #sleevedlife #sleeved
  • Looking back. I was living to die. Drank like a fish, drove with a death wish, and ate like there was no tomorrow. That can I'm holding in my hand is a beer can. That can was full before I poured it down my shirt...why. I have no idea but I was beyond wasted and had lost all control of myself. At that time I had broke up with the love of my life💙 and If I wasnt trying to kill myself with alcohol i was doing it with food. The woman on the right is me now. I rarely drink. I cruz instead of speed and I eat to live not live to eat. My life is not a gamble anymore and I can say I love myself without question. Too bad all this change came to me at a later age but I'm grateful I turned my life around. #weightlossjourney #RELENTLESS #weightloss #weightlosscommunity #iCanAndiWill #progressnotperfection #OneDayAtATime #goalsANDshit #motivation #dedication #Determination #discipline #ImStrongerThanMySymptoms #determind #iWillWinThisFight #DepressionSucks #MommyIssues #AbandonmentIssues #ChildhoodAbuseAwareness #ImStrongerThanMyPast #ItWasNotMyFault
    #bariatricsurgery #bariatriclife #bariatric #bariatriccommunity #livingmybestlife #sleevedlife #sleeved

  •  67  7  24 March, 2020
  • Yesterday, I had a scary dream of an event that happened years back, the time when I was a child, very afraid to speak up and stand against my father.⠀
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In that dream, I saw my father verbally abusing my mom and me trying to stop him, as I was trying to do so, I saw him threatening me that he would slit my abdomen into two if I don't keep quiet.⠀
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The fear I felt was very intense because in reality, he used to do the same every Time, I tried to stop him.⠀
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Upon waking up, I realised what kind of hell I have been through, what kind of trauma these people put us through and how much it affects us internally.⠀
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I fully believe that living with a  narcissistic parent is like living in a special kind of hell. It is like living in a cage with invisible bars.⠀
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The feeling of powerlessness and absolute control is omnipresent, you suppress every damn emotion to survive and escape.⠀
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In 2020, I am on a mission of helping 100 survivors  to heal their past and resolve traumas their childhood traumas⠀
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Comment, "Yes", if you ARE SERIOUSLY interested in getting this help and I will get back to you with further details in DM
  • Yesterday, I had a scary dream of an event that happened years back, the time when I was a child, very afraid to speak up and stand against my father.⠀
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    In that dream, I saw my father verbally abusing my mom and me trying to stop him, as I was trying to do so, I saw him threatening me that he would slit my abdomen into two if I don't keep quiet.⠀
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    The fear I felt was very intense because in reality, he used to do the same every Time, I tried to stop him.⠀
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    Upon waking up, I realised what kind of hell I have been through, what kind of trauma these people put us through and how much it affects us internally.⠀
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    I fully believe that living with a narcissistic parent is like living in a special kind of hell. It is like living in a cage with invisible bars.⠀
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    The feeling of powerlessness and absolute control is omnipresent, you suppress every damn emotion to survive and escape.⠀
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    You numb and dissociate to escape the unbearable pain and that is what creates lays a foundation of your painful present.⠀
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    If you have been through something similar, keep reading 📖⠀
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    No matter how much you try to forget or ignore your past in your present, it will keep haunting you ⠀
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    In 2020, I am on a mission of helping 100 survivors to heal their past and resolve traumas their childhood traumas⠀
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  •  349  33  19 March, 2020
  • Character: North Italy (Feliciano Vargas)
Series: Hetalia 
Hello everyone this is my first post on my new account and I want to explain why I support the things mentioned in my bio. 
I am against childhood abuse because I was abused during my childhood. Specifically I was sexually abused twice as a child and into late into my teenage years. 
I support mental health and mental disabilities because I myself have mental disabilities and my mental health is probably not the best it could be. I have ADHD, PTSD, High Functioning ASD, and Auditory Processing Disorder. 
#indianacosplayer #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #childhoodabuseawareness #childabuseawareness #hetaliacosplay #italycosplay #aphcosplay #italy #aphitaly #cosplayer #cosplay #aphcosplayer #northitaly #bringbackhetalia2020
  • Character: North Italy (Feliciano Vargas)
    Series: Hetalia
    Hello everyone this is my first post on my new account and I want to explain why I support the things mentioned in my bio.
    I am against childhood abuse because I was abused during my childhood. Specifically I was sexually abused twice as a child and into late into my teenage years.
    I support mental health and mental disabilities because I myself have mental disabilities and my mental health is probably not the best it could be. I have ADHD, PTSD, High Functioning ASD, and Auditory Processing Disorder.
    #indianacosplayer #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #childhoodabuseawareness #childabuseawareness #hetaliacosplay #italycosplay #aphcosplay #italy #aphitaly #cosplayer #cosplay #aphcosplayer #northitaly #bringbackhetalia2020

  •  11  0  14 March, 2020
  • It's been years since then but it still haunts me
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#vent #ventart #ventartwork #venting #trauma #traumaart #childabuse #sexualabuse #triggerwarnig #art #artist #artwork #artistsoninstagram #artofinstagram #drawing #draw #drawing🎨 #drawing✏ #drawart #draw🎨 #markerart #micronpen #micronpens #micronart #childabuseawareness #childabuseart #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness
  • It's been years since then but it still haunts me
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    #vent #ventart #ventartwork #venting #trauma #traumaart #childabuse #sexualabuse #triggerwarnig #art #artist #artwork #artistsoninstagram #artofinstagram #drawing #draw #drawing🎨 #drawing✏ #drawart #draw🎨 #markerart #micronpen #micronpens #micronart #childabuseawareness #childabuseart #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness

  •  24  0  8 March, 2020
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Podcast: Honestly by @clemmie_telford featuring @lucysheridan and @julesvonhep⁣
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Listened to this great podcast episode about comparison and they talk about comparison envy to an earlier self, wether it’s how you used to look or the kind of life you used to have. ⁣
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I dedicated a lot of years to becoming a photographer, in a time I had more friends, I was more social and through my rose tinted nostalgia classes I was ‘happier’ back then. Deep down I had terrible anxiety, I was abusing drugs and alcohol to drown out my past and naturally, trying to be an artist in London with no financial help, I was always broke. ⁣
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Eventually I started changing my career path for one with more stability, started therapy, stopped the partying and in the process I lost a lot of “friends” and started making more and saving my money. But photography is a real trigger for me, I instantly get that hot wave of anxiety like ‘Why aren’t you doing this anymore’. And I’ve tried to return to photography in small ways, trying to make personal projects on the side, but it doesn’t align with who I am right now. ⁣
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It’s okay to feel nostalgic about the past but it doesn’t make today’s version of life any less amazing, valuable, or worth living. If you live believing you’ve lost something you won’t appreciate what you have.⁣
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#sexualabusesurvivor #childhoodabuse #childhoodabusesurvivor #childhoodabuseawareness #childhoodabuserecovery #trauma #childhoodtrauma #abuse #metoo #invisibleillness #healing #fuckedupfamilies #incestsurvivor⁣

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    Podcast: Honestly by @clemmie_telford featuring @lucysheridan and @julesvonhep

    Listened to this great podcast episode about comparison and they talk about comparison envy to an earlier self, wether it’s how you used to look or the kind of life you used to have. ⁣

    I dedicated a lot of years to becoming a photographer, in a time I had more friends, I was more social and through my rose tinted nostalgia classes I was ‘happier’ back then. Deep down I had terrible anxiety, I was abusing drugs and alcohol to drown out my past and naturally, trying to be an artist in London with no financial help, I was always broke. ⁣

    Eventually I started changing my career path for one with more stability, started therapy, stopped the partying and in the process I lost a lot of “friends” and started making more and saving my money. But photography is a real trigger for me, I instantly get that hot wave of anxiety like ‘Why aren’t you doing this anymore’. And I’ve tried to return to photography in small ways, trying to make personal projects on the side, but it doesn’t align with who I am right now. ⁣

    It’s okay to feel nostalgic about the past but it doesn’t make today’s version of life any less amazing, valuable, or worth living. If you live believing you’ve lost something you won’t appreciate what you have.⁣

    #sexualabusesurvivor #childhoodabuse #childhoodabusesurvivor #childhoodabuseawareness #childhoodabuserecovery #trauma #childhoodtrauma #abuse #metoo #invisibleillness #healing #fuckedupfamilies #incestsurvivor⁣

  •  4  1  6 March, 2020

Top #childhoodabuseawareness Posts

  • I just saw this thread on @theshaderoom  and the comments brought tears to my eyes. ⁣
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From 'comparing their children with other children' to 'not celebrating their children's wins no matter how small', the list goes on on that thread. ⁣
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We need to do better as parents. That post brought back terrible memories. Lawd!!!!😥😥😥 ⁣
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I used to beat the crap out of my kids years ago but now, I'm a firm believer that it's counter-productive. The stories I could tell about how much that has backfired!!! ⁣
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That died with my parents. I don't see them as bad people. They did the best they could but I'm doing things differently. ⁣
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So, over to you. What toxic parenting style are you leaving with your parents??? Please share with us. Let's learn from you.
  • I just saw this thread on @theshaderoom and the comments brought tears to my eyes. ⁣


    From 'comparing their children with other children' to 'not celebrating their children's wins no matter how small', the list goes on on that thread. ⁣


    We need to do better as parents. That post brought back terrible memories. Lawd!!!!😥😥😥 ⁣


    That our parents did it some kind of way doesn't mean we should continue the vicious cycle.⁣


    Maybe it's a Nigerian thing but most of us have been conditioned to think spanking our kids for instance is harmless. ⁣


    I used to beat the crap out of my kids years ago but now, I'm a firm believer that it's counter-productive. The stories I could tell about how much that has backfired!!! ⁣


    As for me, one toxic parenting style that I'm NEVER continuing with my children is the absence of any form of bonding and words of endearment. ⁣


    Till date, I don't remember my father ever hugging me. ⁣


    That died with my parents. I don't see them as bad people. They did the best they could but I'm doing things differently. ⁣


    My parenting isn't perfect and my kids are farrr from perfect but I will not be repeating some things with them. ⁣


    So, over to you. What toxic parenting style are you leaving with your parents??? Please share with us. Let's learn from you.

  •  82  32  10 April, 2019
  • Just because it’s over doesn’t mean it’s over..
We carry the pain with us, although we want to forget it. Abuse in all forms is very damaging and we forget that because we cannot see the scars imprinted in our minds. I still remember the feeling of terror when my mother used to barge into my room like a demon had possessed her as her hand swiped across my dresser. All of my collectibles and keepsakes were smashed to the ground in her fit of rage. The toilet got clogged and immediately I was the one she blamed. But that was the usual; I was blamed for things even when I wasn’t home. She used to randomly smash my belongings when something happened in the house. My siblings watched in terror. They didnt know what to do. Then she’d pull my hair and push me down while I pleaded “no, no stop it wasn’t me!” She couldn’t even hear me at that point because she had to get her aggression out. I was always left to clean up the mess. Once she broke a globe (you know the ones with the water in them and when you shake them, theres glitter) 
I foolishly used to stand there begging for answers from her “why did you do this?” And she seemed to have hated me and would walk away and act like I didn’t matter. I picked up the pieces of glass and all my things off the floor, some broke and some in tact after every episode she had. This went on for years. I cried a lot and didn’t know what I did. Rather than seeing she had the problem, as a child I thought I was bad and wrong. It manifested in me throughout childhood that I was internally defective. 
#childhoodabuseawareness #childhoodabuse #traumabonding #traumarecovery #speakup #childhoodwounds #reflection #horror #psychologicalabuse #emotionalabuse #survivorstories #survivorsspeak #shame #abusiverelationship #education #myexperience #processthepain
  • Just because it’s over doesn’t mean it’s over..
    We carry the pain with us, although we want to forget it. Abuse in all forms is very damaging and we forget that because we cannot see the scars imprinted in our minds. I still remember the feeling of terror when my mother used to barge into my room like a demon had possessed her as her hand swiped across my dresser. All of my collectibles and keepsakes were smashed to the ground in her fit of rage. The toilet got clogged and immediately I was the one she blamed. But that was the usual; I was blamed for things even when I wasn’t home. She used to randomly smash my belongings when something happened in the house. My siblings watched in terror. They didnt know what to do. Then she’d pull my hair and push me down while I pleaded “no, no stop it wasn’t me!” She couldn’t even hear me at that point because she had to get her aggression out. I was always left to clean up the mess. Once she broke a globe (you know the ones with the water in them and when you shake them, theres glitter)
    I foolishly used to stand there begging for answers from her “why did you do this?” And she seemed to have hated me and would walk away and act like I didn’t matter. I picked up the pieces of glass and all my things off the floor, some broke and some in tact after every episode she had. This went on for years. I cried a lot and didn’t know what I did. Rather than seeing she had the problem, as a child I thought I was bad and wrong. It manifested in me throughout childhood that I was internally defective.
    #childhoodabuseawareness #childhoodabuse #traumabonding #traumarecovery #speakup #childhoodwounds #reflection #horror #psychologicalabuse #emotionalabuse #survivorstories #survivorsspeak #shame #abusiverelationship #education #myexperience #processthepain

  •  51  2  6 September, 2019
  • 💥Tip #5 On How To Conquer Your Abuse From The Past:
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Whether it is a business coach, life coach, personal trainers, or mentor. .
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EVERYONE needs someone who supports them and can help them get to the next level faster & with less pain.
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IF you are trying to heal from abuse on your own STOP. You aren’t meant to go through this time of healing on your own because it’s too hard on your own.
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Instead HIRE someone.
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Yes I mean pay money for a coach, counselor, or mentor.
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That’s the first step to healing is saying “you are worth investing in yourself!”
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You are worth investing in yourself AND IF you are ready to invest in yourself to learn how to stop letting your abuse define you then apply for my 90 program called RISE UP ACADEMY. 
If NOT my program then find one that works for you.
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WHO’S READY TO STOP DOING LIFE ON THEIR OWN❓
(Comment Below or DM Me) 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼
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#riseupacademy #welifttorise #dontdolifealone #life #lifeisbeautiful #lifeisgood #lifecoach #coach #coaching #mentor #mentoring #mentors #personaltraining #personaltrainer #coachforwomen #mindsetcoachforwomen #coachforwomen #abusecoach #abuserecoverycoach #abusedwomen #abuse #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #mindsetiseverything #mindsetafterworkout #womenworkout #motivationmonday
  • 💥Tip #5 On How To Conquer Your Abuse From The Past:
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    DON’T DO LIFE ON YOUR OWN 🤝
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    Everyone no matter how successful they are has a coach. .
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    Whether it is a business coach, life coach, personal trainers, or mentor. .
    .
    EVERYONE needs someone who supports them and can help them get to the next level faster & with less pain.
    .
    .
    IF you are trying to heal from abuse on your own STOP. You aren’t meant to go through this time of healing on your own because it’s too hard on your own.
    .
    .
    Instead HIRE someone.
    .
    .
    Yes I mean pay money for a coach, counselor, or mentor.
    .
    .
    That’s the first step to healing is saying “you are worth investing in yourself!”
    .
    .
    You are worth investing in yourself AND IF you are ready to invest in yourself to learn how to stop letting your abuse define you then apply for my 90 program called RISE UP ACADEMY.
    If NOT my program then find one that works for you.
    .
    .
    WHO’S READY TO STOP DOING LIFE ON THEIR OWN❓
    (Comment Below or DM Me) 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼
    .
    .
    #riseupacademy #welifttorise #dontdolifealone #life #lifeisbeautiful #lifeisgood #lifecoach #coach #coaching #mentor #mentoring #mentors #personaltraining #personaltrainer #coachforwomen #mindsetcoachforwomen #coachforwomen #abusecoach #abuserecoverycoach #abusedwomen #abuse #childhoodabuse #childhoodabuseawareness #mindsetiseverything #mindsetafterworkout #womenworkout #motivationmonday

  •  77  3  29 October, 2019
  • Healing My Childhood Trauma 🦋 •
I was so young when it started. I was 12 when it stopped. He was arrested. Everyone wanted to know what happened. The questions were many. So many questions. So many people. I couldn’t find my words.
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They wanted me to talk, but I was frozen for 6 years. Thawing would take time. I couldn’t say it all in an interrogation-which it was. They didn’t know then what they know now about being trauma informed.
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They kept asking me to tell them everything. I couldn’t. I could only tell them what I couldn’t forget! That was what stood out the most. What I couldn’t forget!
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April is sexual assault awareness month. Since the day I got sober, I’ve done my part to move past the pain and help others. It took 27 years to get the help I needed, but I got it. The 2 trauma therapists I had knew exactly how to help me move past the mental blocks, break down the stale emotional energy and release the terrifying memories so that I could finally begin to heal!
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The post prior to this one shows a few of the books that helped me heal and understand how the trauma was stored in my body and my memory. These books helped me so that the trauma no longer haunted me.
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Trauma was the gateway to my substance abuse and mental health diagnosis. Getting sober and going to therapy was the catalyst to my healing journey so that I could become the woman I had always wanted to be! ❤️
Embracing the courage through resilience outside of the story I once told to protect myself. Truth and bravery to keep moving forward.
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#asoberauthor #traumatherapy #traumahealing #endchildsexualabuse #vulnerabilityisstrength #iamresilient #dothework #overcomingabuse #overcomingobstacles #nomorestigma #survıvor #soberquarantine #speakingmytruth #ptsdsurvivor #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #thebodykeepsthescore #rewritingmystory #recoveryprocess #breakingthesilence #endingthestigma #breakthecycle #saam #childhoodabuseawareness #savingmylife #healingtrauma #selfcompassion #selflovejourney #teentraumarecovery #ownyourpower
  • Healing My Childhood Trauma 🦋 •
    I was so young when it started. I was 12 when it stopped. He was arrested. Everyone wanted to know what happened. The questions were many. So many questions. So many people. I couldn’t find my words.

    They wanted me to talk, but I was frozen for 6 years. Thawing would take time. I couldn’t say it all in an interrogation-which it was. They didn’t know then what they know now about being trauma informed.

    They kept asking me to tell them everything. I couldn’t. I could only tell them what I couldn’t forget! That was what stood out the most. What I couldn’t forget!

    April is sexual assault awareness month. Since the day I got sober, I’ve done my part to move past the pain and help others. It took 27 years to get the help I needed, but I got it. The 2 trauma therapists I had knew exactly how to help me move past the mental blocks, break down the stale emotional energy and release the terrifying memories so that I could finally begin to heal!

    The post prior to this one shows a few of the books that helped me heal and understand how the trauma was stored in my body and my memory. These books helped me so that the trauma no longer haunted me.

    Trauma was the gateway to my substance abuse and mental health diagnosis. Getting sober and going to therapy was the catalyst to my healing journey so that I could become the woman I had always wanted to be! ❤️
    Embracing the courage through resilience outside of the story I once told to protect myself. Truth and bravery to keep moving forward.

    #asoberauthor #traumatherapy #traumahealing #endchildsexualabuse #vulnerabilityisstrength #iamresilient #dothework #overcomingabuse #overcomingobstacles #nomorestigma #survıvor #soberquarantine #speakingmytruth #ptsdsurvivor #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #thebodykeepsthescore #rewritingmystory #recoveryprocess #breakingthesilence #endingthestigma #breakthecycle #saam #childhoodabuseawareness #savingmylife #healingtrauma #selfcompassion #selflovejourney #teentraumarecovery #ownyourpower

  •  55  11  13 April, 2020
  • I grabbed this quote from a Shaken Baby Syndrome support group I’m in. These parents have and continue to go through what we went through. ⁣⁣
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It’s heart breaking, yet so uplifting to know I’m in a safe place. ⁣⁣
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It’s extremely hard to open up and feel all the feelings. Sometimes it’s easier to just survive each day.⁣⁣
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I see you. I’m here for you. You’re safe with me. ❤️⁣⁣
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I see you running your child to therapy when your friends are running their kids to little league or ballet. ⁣⁣
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I see you slipping out of the conversation when your friends are all chiming in about milestones and test grades. ⁣⁣
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I see you constantly juggling appointments and meetings. ⁣⁣
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I see you sitting at your computer for hours researching what your child needs. ⁣⁣
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I see you spread thin, but still going the extra mile for your family. ⁣⁣
⁣⁣
I see you digging for depths of strength you never dreamed you had. ⁣⁣
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I see you showing appreciation to the teachers, therapists, and medical professionals who serve your child with you. ⁣⁣
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I see you rising early in the morning to do it all again after another chaotic night. ⁣⁣
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I see you when you’re hanging on to the end of your rope for dear life. ⁣⁣
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I know you feel invisible, like nobody notices any of it. I want you to know I notice you. ⁣⁣
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I see you relentlessly pushing onward. ⁣⁣
⁣⁣
I see you keep choosing to do everything in your power to give your child the best possible care at home, in school, at therapy, and at the doctor. ⁣⁣
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What you’re doing matters. It’s worth it. ⁣⁣
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On those days when you wonder if you can do it another minute, I want you to know I see you. I want you to know you’re beautiful. I want you to know it’s worth it. I want you to know you’re not alone. I want you to know love is what matters most, and you have that nailed. ⁣⁣
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And on those days when you have breakthroughs, those times when the hard work pays off and success is yours to cherish, I see you then too, and I am proud of you. ⁣⁣
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Whichever day today is, you’re worthy, you’re good, and I see you. — Author Unknown⁣⁣
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#iseeyou #youresafe #blueribboninitiative
  • I grabbed this quote from a Shaken Baby Syndrome support group I’m in. These parents have and continue to go through what we went through. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    It’s heart breaking, yet so uplifting to know I’m in a safe place. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    It’s extremely hard to open up and feel all the feelings. Sometimes it’s easier to just survive each day.⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you. I’m here for you. You’re safe with me. ❤️⁣⁣

    ..........................................⁣

    I see you running your child to therapy when your friends are running their kids to little league or ballet. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you slipping out of the conversation when your friends are all chiming in about milestones and test grades. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you constantly juggling appointments and meetings. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you sitting at your computer for hours researching what your child needs. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you spread thin, but still going the extra mile for your family. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you digging for depths of strength you never dreamed you had. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you showing appreciation to the teachers, therapists, and medical professionals who serve your child with you. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you rising early in the morning to do it all again after another chaotic night. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you when you’re hanging on to the end of your rope for dear life. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I know you feel invisible, like nobody notices any of it. I want you to know I notice you. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you relentlessly pushing onward. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    I see you keep choosing to do everything in your power to give your child the best possible care at home, in school, at therapy, and at the doctor. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    What you’re doing matters. It’s worth it. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    On those days when you wonder if you can do it another minute, I want you to know I see you. I want you to know you’re beautiful. I want you to know it’s worth it. I want you to know you’re not alone. I want you to know love is what matters most, and you have that nailed. ⁣⁣
    ⁣⁣
    And on those days when you have breakthroughs, those times when the hard work pays off and success is yours to cherish, I see you then too, and I am proud of you. ⁣⁣
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    Whichever day today is, you’re worthy, you’re good, and I see you. — Author Unknown⁣⁣

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    #iseeyou #youresafe #blueribboninitiative

  •  27  3  11 October, 2019